Well I'm currently in a situation where I feel lost. As many ppl say it's wrong to even think about loving a cousin, I seem to always think about my cousin(female). We know each other since we were kids. We are 1st Cousins but ( We have different Grandfathers/ so that means that my mother and her mother are half sisters) but our families are very united! As far as religion goes..we r catholics and don't think is an issue since Im not into religion that much and neither are most of my families but we still know we have a God. I've already heard how can u date your cousin? there are so many women in the world?!! well yea done that ...I've dated girls in high school and most turned out to be girls who only worry about when is the next time to go out (movies, shopping, and bunch of stupid things) Yea I know that is what most ppl do but I just can't seem to enjoy it ...I mean it might b cuz my cousin is not really those type of girls that is always waiting for the next party or likes to have lots of boyfriends, She is good looking, very reserved( that is what I like the most about her. Very different from most typical women) She was going to become a nun or sister( church related ) well she ended leaving and got herself a boyfriend when she was younger. I did have a GF who had the same characteristics as my cousin but things happened and we broke up, she was the only GF that I can say I still remember

We both dated different ppl through out the years and now we are 20 and well we've been single for over a year, she said she's going to dedicate more time into school and so em I..but I told few of my friends (girls) and well they said is wrong...Well the reason I feel this way about my cousin is because whenever I'm around her we just enjoy each others presence. To get to the point I just love her, cant really express it any other way. Sometimes I wonder " How would I feel if my son would date my brother's(I have a half brother) daughter" cant find any answers and later I always remember that "what is wrong when you love a person so much that you are willing to do anything knowing the consequences.

About the birth defects of a child- please save your time ( ppl either say they will be deformed or have a problem or others that dont think is wrong( only 4% higher than a normal baby) well I dont want to know that. I only know that if God wants me to raise a healthy child so then be it.... If I get a child with problems I will still raise him with all my love. But right now I'm not thinking about kids cuz I'm too young to become a father. I do like to party with friends( men and women) and find beautiful women but can't seem to get her off my mind. Im not obsessed by the way....but I felt this way ever since I was a young kid.

Forgot ( She doesnt know how I feel about her. I want let her know and soon I will )

Please all comments are welcome and please do not reply if you are just going to type BS

Thanx